Monday, May 31, 2010
So the Youth Camp's really done, it's been more than a week since then... And my effin gosh... I really like you, dude. :)
So, I was talkin about CCCCCCC HAHAHAHA =)) JK. Whtvr, dun ask me about this. Because school's just... 7 days away. And that's freakin annoying to know that vacation's finally over that time... Geez. And last night... Was a great great great night in the history of my life :) Smile!
Pero bago ang lahat, not sure about the date, I kinda forgot na... HAHA. I think that's Thursday. I went to Alfonso's Disco (Discovery) Camp together with my YFC sisters, Angela, Lyle and Ate Bok (I actually used to call her Ate Jo, haha. But now I got used calling her that way as most do that). Ayon, just felt happy and grateful that my parents allowed me to come with them. Lyle was here at home kasi that aft to get her books for her sophomore year. She's gonna be borrowing mine last year (all books are full of doodles talaga, writing my name with his..HAHA! And some spell check and everything, haha).
SOOO, I was gone for like 8 hours approx... I was out wit my Dad. We went off to school to talk about or get some details about my school uniform because I dun have one yet until this very day. Incoming Junior and yet, I dun have uniform? Because I got fat, okay? Like I told you a hunred times before... I kinda lost only 1-2 inches only, damn it baby. Need to lose more pounds! But I'm pretty school...got it wrong. I'm pretty sure school will lose all my fats for me.. The longest possible sleep will always be 7 hours of sleep, worse is when I get only four hours of sleep. That usually happens when it's 'project seasons' and 'exam week'. Hella days are those.
But of course, I did not stay at school for eight hours, that took less than an hour (and I even had the guts to sleep on our way, wooot!). Twas boring travelling sometimes... Guess so.
By like before three in the aft, my superSis Lyle visited me (like I was sick? Hell no). We kinda had a quality time before the school hits everyday-seeing-each other-unless-one-of-us-is-absent. So we watched the movie I Am Sam... Twas really nice. I was kinda inspired and it touched my life for sure. You gotta watch it, guys. Pls do. We have nothing left to watch coz some of our DVDs were borrowed. When she said, 'Napanuod ko na 'to lahat. Ako na lang magsasabi ng title, dapat meron kayo' so that did it. 'I Am Sam!' she said. I jumped off my feet. Hurray!!!! It's a coincident, isn't it? Tita Karen let me borrowed that DVD together with Hachiko. :) NICE! So w ate McDo's french fries together with burger (which I didn't eat mine, I dun like burgers with ketchup, lol). So that went well and we had some 'kwentuhan' after the movie :) The movie was 2 hours and 30 mins long. :)
Ayon, so as of now... Wala, nakisingit lang ako sa Mom ko. She's actually using the computer e :) That'd be okay :)
I just wanted to blog that I'VE WON A PBA TICKET IN THE PBA TEXT PROMO. and that's really crazy.
I tweeted:
Wait...did you see my name on d tv screen? HAHA! Is dt really me? I've won a ticket in the PBA? was juz playin around when I texted, HAHA!
When I saw my name, I jumped the tv 2 other channel like I dun wanna hear my name, haha. I can't watch PBA Live, can I? Hahahahaha
Drs dis call I didn't take last Friday. Dn I tripped on it and sat on my phone, and heard sum1 talkn I ignored. What to do now? HAHA
Alright, I kinda confirmed it. I won a ticket in da PBA! :) HURRAY FOR ME! Note dat I only texted once, haha :)
I RT this. @: @ I heard your name on TV na! HAHA cool. Ang arte pa ng pagkakasabi sa name mo. :))
And I agree to that :)) It was like... Wait, did the announcer say Sh..Sh...errrrry? :)) Like he can't actually pronounce my name, baby. But I think that was really cool, >:))
Ayon, sobrang natuwa lang ako and my bro did tweeted it too and it was retweeted by I dunno who, haha :
My sister @ won some ticket to PBA (text promo) and her name has been flashed and announced on TV for so many times. Whats a fanatic?
I mean, Nicx did RT that pala, hahaha :)) I just saw it. And tell me how happy I am right now coz this is my first time... And I'm really a fan...a huge huge huge fan of PBA. :) I rarely miss a game tho I alrdy missed I think 10 games approx this conference. But I think, that's really, really cool to be a fan. :) I did not even wish nor pray to win that text promo, the thing is that I am grateful I did. :) Ayon.
That's just how I explain happiness as of now. Getting what you want that you've never even dreamed of nor even wished for. Achieving something out of nowhere. It was a dream after all though it's not something so special before. I guess, some things can be your dreams just because you get them. Otherwise, some are your dreams because you're not reaching it yet. Dreams somehow come true though one did not even ask for it. There's no dream that fails unless there's gotta be something more than that dream. Something beyond it yet so good.
God bless us all. :)
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:25 PM
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Whenever I listen to 'When I Look At You', I always feel like blogging. Char. :))
Currently looking at the...I dunno, countdown of worst to best cereals. Haha, got nothing else to do, because we're out of stack of cereals here at home, lol. Well, when will be our family grocery again? Why do people seem to be so busy except from me? Pssssssh.
NP: Be On You - Flo Rida ft Ne-Yo >
But I still can't get over Rude Boy... I wanna parteeeehhhh!!!!
I wanna tell you that I crush you so much and you make me smile, ku? HAHAHAHAHAHAH! dramaaaa much? I was jk. Lol, just wanna say that I'm so grateful meeting new friends in YFC, thank you Lord!
I srsly just can't wait for the PBA games latuuur, I really missed watching one. I've missed five games last weekend, pft. Twas so sad, but I'm never gonna replace serving God with those games, I'm in a relationship with God e. :) Ayon, I miss my YFC family...my bros and sis. Tsssss.
Did you notice that I usually add some letttteeers like thiiiiiis??? I mean I proloooong the word, hahahahaha. That's how I emphasiiiiiize. lol.
My right eye hurt, please...not now.... We'll go to Manila by Friday and Saturday, I don't want to call it off. Please man. :(
Oryt. I'm blank. Imma go and wait til 5 PM...and now, about to watch V-league! WOOOOSH!
♥ life sent to Kyu
1:53 PM
Monday, May 24, 2010
1:45 AM na, gising pa ako. The thing is that I've just woken up by 12:00 midnight. Because my leg hurts down to my feet and my feet soles. I can't even walk that much, even stand up! or even just sit around, I don't feel so okay. It hurts too much that all I can do is lay down on my bed.
"Your love is all I need, Jesus You're all I need. My life belongs to You, You gave Your life for me. You're grace is all I need. Jesus, You're all I need."
What gave me this tired and painful body is what I live for, Him...God. I gave my best, I gave my three days and forever to serve Him. I'm on my first year and two days of being a YFC member. I keep going. I give my all. I sweat all of me. I never doubt Him. Because there's nothing greater than Him. I've never been so in love like this, I love You, God. You're my everything, and for that, I am nothing without You.
"Oh I love You more than I can say. Ever I will sing, only You will I adore. Glorify my Lord, only you will I serve. For the world will fade away, still my song to You remains...only You will I adore!"
I didn't know it'll be this way.
May 21, 2010- I did not prepare that much, one backpack to bring with those filthy clothes good until that night only. Bringing with me only myself. Because I can't let myself be left out, because I'm ready to serve Him. I ready for the unseen battle. I'm ready to fight.
But everything was just so right...it felt so overwhelming to see over 50 participants for the Youth Camp when my sis and I (with some recruits) arrived in the venue... Because we expected 20-30 only... We were just so blessed to get over 60 until five or six in the afternoon. So just that I'm soooo thankful to get to see those faces you'll never even imagine to be there and to see them. It was just so awesome... we were really blessed. And there are lots of visitors from other chapters (Bailen, Alfonso, Tagaytay, Indang--completing our sector!)
Get those food, give it to them. Go there, go back here... Because we were the ones who give the food to the participants. For once in our lives, we become some sort of yaya's in a really good way. We were just so happy to serve them what they need. We get them drinks and everything else such as buying them food outside the venue. We can't just sit around even for five little minutes. We need to work-ship. Because in the YFC Mendez history, this is the best of all. We got 61 (supposedly 62, but one got home due to some emergency) participants, when we used to have only 22 last year (our batch, 6) and for the batch 1, 2 or 3...we only got those something like 9 participants, now we don't have just twice, or thrice as much as it... But we got so much more than that. This Batch 7 broke the record of 46 participants (Batch 4).
At the end of the day, is the best part of it. Because it symbolizes that we got through it all... through the first day of camp. Worship. that's the last thing for the day, the greatest one to do too.
May 22, 2010- I wasn't able to sleep that much. I only fell asleep by 2 in the morning. I woke up by 4 AM, but got up by 4:30 with my sis. But still, thankful to get some sleep. That'd be good to get some energy from.
We walked home by like 6 in the morning to take a bath. Assigned for our respective groups, we took home our babies. They took a batch here at home. Some go for their facilitators home too. That was nice, because we gotta get back by 7:30 AM at the venue. This happened for the first time also. I guess. Because the participants can't just go out of the venue, that's really restricted. But the number of the participants cannot be accommodated by the bathrooms for such number.
I got late, actually. So as my sis because we have to prioritize our babies first. But that's okay though. I have one participant late with me, Roren. I'm so sorry. Good thing the talk 2 isn't on-going that time. It wasn't starting yet.
This day, a lot happened. I cannot tell them all anymore.
May 23, 2010- Last day. No taking a bath. Just a rush. We went to church by 6:30 AM considering it's the first mass in our town. I felt so sleepy during the mass... So sleepy though I got 4 hours of sleep today. Thank you Fr. Mel for noticing the huge crowd of YFC. Thank you!
My foot hurts this time. But I do not let it end my service. I can still walk and serve them all. A lot happened too, almost all Facilitators, service team, camp servants... we're all like those crying ladies and guys on the stage watching them all cry. Our heart was just so touched. It's also a cry for happiness looking at the ne YFC members...new God's servants... twas just all the best to see.
I cannot really tell what happened exactly, that's just if you join us. :) See you next camp, peeps! Be one of us!
We remained in the venue to clean, that time, I can hardly walk. But I tried my best to pick up those cups and bottles... Sweep the room's floor... fix the things and all I wanted was to lay down on my bed.
Thank you so much, God, for such a successful camp. It's just so awesome to get those 61 new YFCs. You gave us one of the best blessings, Lord.
I experienced so much pain. I cannot eat as much as I wanted even if my stomach's already grumbling. I cannot just fix my hair and face. I cannot just take a bath. I can't just sit around and relax a bit. I did sweat a lot like it as never been so hot before. I even experienced feeling my sweat falling/slowly flowing on my fore head, even on my scalp, on the side of my neck...worse is around all my neck, on the right of my eye... The worst is I see them falling on the floor (that happened the 2nd day--night). It was my first time to sweat like that. I also experienced skipping two meals for I know a lot needs the energy from the food I can eat (though it's just disappointing seeing so many left overs). All the pain I've felt... pain in my back while sleeping, and my Achilles tendon felt like breaking too and my foot sole feeling so hardened. My legs we're in pain too. But all of these sacrifices and pains are worth it. Worth it to welcome new YFCs. I love these pains. And I'm thankful for these.
This time, I can shout out loud, I'M PROUD TO BE A YFC! I'm a Youth For Christ and for that, may God be praised!
thank you for the venue, Gahitan Elementary School. We couldn't have done such a nice camp without this. Thank you for other volunteers and visitors from Bailen--there were lots of you, thank you Ate Pipaii for being the best (facilitor) partner even, you are my first partner ever! from Alfonso, thank you too! From Indang, thank you Kuya Paul for always being there!, from Tagaytay, Kuya Shervin, you're the best! Thank you so much for all your help, guys!
Thanks din sa mga tito's and tita's na bumisita, napakagaling lang nila dahil sa suporta. Kay Tita Kristy na aming Cluster Tita, napakasupportive. Of course, the best of all... our chapter Tito--Tito Francis and his wife, our chapter Tita...Tita Lilian! Thank you po for being just there. Thank you so much!
Thank you to all the participants. Thank you guys for being the new army of God. Thank you for responding to His call. Thank you for standing up for Him! Let's be active and continue to serve Him!
Thank you to my co-service team, to the other facis, to the team leader, Ate Aemie and Kuya Aven, to our chapter heads, Kuya Nash and Ate Jo. Sobrang salamat! At sa napakasisipag na camp servants, super thanks!
This made my weekend the best of all in this year. I love you all! I LOVE YOU GOD! WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH!
"I worship You, my God... I worship You, my God. I love
You.. I love You!"
♥ life sent to Kyu
1:43 AM
Friday, May 21, 2010
Got one long title again, HAHA! You can't see it! More HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
We just got finished cleaning the venue for the camp this afternoon. I'm now a bit excited, it has taken so much part in my life. I want to be YFC forevah! The thing is that I'm not always gonna be Youth that long, haha. But thank you Gahitan for letting us use your school for three days, that'd be cool. We promise to keep you clean more than your some teachers left it. Haha, sorry for talkin' to you boy, I didn't even know if you're a boy. But thank you boy. HAHAHAHAHA!
#Nowplaying (all over and over and over again) Rude Boy - Rihanna, it's addicting! Puh-lease, play the next song, Windows Media Player, just because I ain't got iTunes in the desktop doesn't mean I love you. Haha, you always take time to load, don't you? That's just so stupid, err. Please grow, thank you. Sing it up, babe! "Come here rude boy boy can you get it up? Come here rude boy boy is your big enough?Take it take it, baby baby, take it, take it, love me, love me!" HAHAHAHA, love this song so much, parteh baby! Oh, stfu... I just remembered last night when I was playing such songs while the world is half asleep. Haha, speaking of last night....(which was kinda 1 in the morning already, I call that last night, haha) (OMG, wait. Same compliment goes too, taaaaduuuuh! Mr. Microsoft Word. Grow up too, please.)
I tweeted: #nowplaying Rude Boy - Rihanna @jdv_38 during the awesome all star game hahaha :)
I just kinda continued what I'm doing, browsing some pics online, haha. I love those really awesome shots, captured moments and the sunset. Love them all, boy. So whoever took those shots, I love y'all. You'll never gonna hate me coz you ain't know me. That goes the same way to you. haha, I really appreciate those photos. Lots of meaning, blaaaaah!
So, time to refresh the twitter page when it says, "oops! something went wrong blah blah blah'' so I click it, baby.
Scroll up, scroll down. OMG! Joe DeVance replied to my tweet, yikes! I can't stop smiling that time, whooooop! That was my day, man. Ms. Patricia Hizon replied to my tweet too which was like 2 days ago. But that's just sooooo awesome! Here's what Joe said:
jdv_38 @MShey17 haha. People tell me that all da time.
You made up my day that early, Joe! Twas just so cool, man. Thank you for tweeting me back, haha. Second time around being mentioned by the person I don't know personally, haha. And the best damn thang about that is that...omg, he's a PBA player, and I love PBA. so thank you so much :)
Moving on.... hahaha. Or just go back.
YFC-Youth CAMP! YES YES YES! Less than three hours more, then it's there! Should be on the venue again by now, but we're waiting for Roren, Luis and Tita Karen at home. They don't know the venue e. Sorry, we're gonna be like particpants coming late, haha. They're gonna be fixinf the stage, baby! Shoutout to Kuya PoChard! The best best best artist! The t-shirt designs and all the other designs for the camp! You're really really good! The Best tho, bro!
NP: Nothing On You - B.o.B ft. Bruno Mars HAHA, like it! Because on three days, we'll be singing and worshiping Him alone. :) Oh, I've just missed doing it, and those awesome-st Hillsong songs!!! That sound of the guitar from the music ministry and the voice of the vocals... Ate Jen will prolly be the one this camp, and hoping Kuya Gene to be there anyway. Cool voice for both! Two thumbs up! :)
So, gotta go guys. Just blogged for I can't in two days. Tiring Saturday and Sunday. First time to be a facilitator, so pray for me guys. :) Lots of ♥ to you. :)
Bye. See you, Youth Camp-ers!
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:49 PM
Thursday, May 20, 2010
"Many are called, but few are chosen"
Tomorrow's the Youth Camp - Batch 7 - Mendez Chapter. Go go go, Mendez! I'm not that excited, but I'm really happy. I'm praying for a successful one... Please, nobody ruin it. Especially 'that' moment, 'kay? Everybody will be happy. I'm pretty sure of it. And every body who wants can come tomorrow, guys. Go and be a Youth For Christ Member!
Location: Gahitan Elementary School, Mendez Cavite (UPLI)
Date: May 21-23, 2010
Time: 4:00 PM - May 21, 2010, afterlunch - May 23, 2010
Things to bring: Pen, paper, clothes good for 2 days and 2 nights, white shirt (plain or printed), closed shoes, beddings, personal things (toothbrush, shampoo, etc...) Yourself and your Heart.
Registration Fee: P 200.00 only
Note: Please let your parents come with you to the venue on May 21, 2010. There will be orientation from 4:00 - 5:00 PM.
Oryt. Let's get it on, guys! Keep praying, y'all. This would be really, really great and fun!
YFC- 4 F's → Friendship, Fun, Freedom, and Faith. You're gonna get it all, peeps. :) Go and share your life with us. Go to the Youth Camp and be a YFC!
♥ life sent to Kyu
2:41 PM
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
I'm hell out of me. I'm not okay. I'm not happy. I'm disappointed. I'm upset.
As I've blogged yesterday, I'm effing happy to be with my friends this whole vacation. It's like escaping from being stuck at home. It's like having a real vacation. I'm too much excited.
But all at once, I'm all down. Dad will be going to Manila. (Heck those works, but I understand that's all for us, I just can't understand why does it have to be today? *sob sob*) And now he's in Manila. I can't go meet my friends alone, 'cause I think I have the farthest home built. I think I have a pair of couples which are so damn busy from their works. I'm not saying they don't have time for us, because that's gonna be cool if we're on our own. HAHA. So, what am I saying? Why am I talking about them? SO apparently, I am here. see? I wasn't able to go with my friends for our outing. It's a last minute call-it-off. I feel like crying when I called Maris to inform her that I can't go. It's priceless being with them. I miss them so much, is it that hard to understand?
I'm so random today. I even forgot that I have twitter, like I'm on TweetDeck for so long, hours from now, but I didn't even update one. Zarreh, folks. I subscribed to Alex Cabagnot's YouTube @ c
abbagieTV. Subscribe too. I finally figrred it out how long it takes before a basketball star can go. Like...uh, there are lots of fans outside waiting for them to sign this and that. HAHA. I view whoever-album-was-that on Facebook. I didn't even know who they are in the picture. HAHA, I realized I have too few albums in Facebook. Oh geez, I'm so not camwhore anymore. Zarreh! I read new pbaonline articles. I'm suddenly in Flickr. Then I can't stop listening to When I Look At You. Puhleeeez, don't even like Miley...hahaha. Not that much, I mean. Suddenly, wedding pops in my head. How heavenly would mine be? Hmm..
(Now even searching wedding rites, tell me now that I'm sooo insane. No, just kill me. That'd be better)
SO, whatever.
Now, let have a talk again. Like I'm preaching once again, or less... I'm suing myself. HAHA.
First... How happy will I be if I can have a lifetime boyfriend? It's like finding your real soul mate. I know serious relationships will always start at college life. Or it's gonna be the worst heartbreak. So, as the story goes on... The guy surprises you with a bouquet of your favorite flowers. Lit candles surround you both. Like he's never done this before. It's the perfect moment, it's never been a dream until it happens. He kneels down before you, opens that little box and say the opening to your dream words, ''Will you marry me?" or either way, it can be... "Will you be with me forever?" Whatever statement it will be just to take you with him for eternity, that can be the cheesiest as it may sound, but at that perfect moment, there is nothing else that will make you realize what's corny or not... Because the best answer will always be 'Yes!' and if you say 'No' then go and find yourself. Because being with someone for a lifetime doesn't deserve a NO. Because that dream is in your hands.
The next thing on the list is giving it all. Like being busy with the preparations, since this will be happening just once in a lifetime, you gotta get some things that are so precious. Grand or inexpensive wedding? If so, then it's just like thanking... That you've got to give it all, your everything and make something that makes that day so special... So perfect.
Telling your parents, friends, relatives about the upcoming wedding. Giving the news formally would be nice, because that's like telling them that you're gonna live your own life at one point of time and maybe for life. And it's gonna be with one person. With whom you're bestowing your love. Of course, as expected it would be some kind of heartbreaking to both of your parents, his and yours. (why am I using 2nd person? geez, can I use me? 'kay, I'll be) It's not some other everyday news I can give to my parents. It's not something I can text to them like, 'hey Mom, I'm gonna be married soon!' No, it's not that way. Even Dad can make me grounded for the rest of my life. Marriage is not a joke. It's not that simple sacrament, right? What will happen if I tell this news to my parents? As a daughter, it wouldn't be that easy for them, especially to my Dad, right? Because it's like he used to keep me inside the house when I was in elementary and high school. He hardly accepted that I'm in college and had to live independently in Manila. I expect some drama, and and YES also from my family. Telling is to my fiancé's parents would be just the same. The only difference is that he's a boy. It would be a little easier for the parents to accept it. But I don't underestimate them, what if they can't just let go of their son, right?
The catch is that I'm never gonna marry someone who isn't of the same faith as mine. Unless he's willing to be converted 'cause I ain't gonna give up my beliefs. :)
There's gotta be a lot of preparations. As for me, I want it to be a middle one. Not that grand but not too simple. I want everything to be more than fine, but less than perfect. We'll have to tell a church where we want to get married the exact date. As much as possible, I really wanted to get married the same date as our anniversary. :((( Will that be possible? so whatever, we have to decide who's gonna be our presider. Which for sure is gonna be a priest. Haha. We're gonna need to divide the expenses too. As a bride, I'm gonna need to be the one in-charge of the right wedding gown and the seats of the guests like how many are coming. That's gonna go with my family side. As for the groom, then... I dunno, maybe the reception.
Picking the Bride's Maid and the Groom's Best Man/Men will be there too. I'm gonna pick of course, my sister on the number one spot and two of my closest friends. That can't be decided yet, 'cause in this life, I'm still gonna meet lots of bunches of people. But whoever will be, I hope they can be. Same has to go with my fiancé's choice.
So long will it take to prepare. As a bride-to-be, fitting and/or making or choosing of the wedding gown would be the best part. And if I can, I'd design my own. Because it's something that I've got to give my all. It's something that's so special, I want my works to be done. I want to give it a try and design my own. I'd like to do the same with my bride's maid and maid of honor. I want white "trahe de boda" (dunno the correct spelling, sorry) not a colored one. As the theme, I want it to be some sort of rainbow colors. I want it to be colorful. My groom-to-be decides on his own. Haha.
Two nights before the wedding, there's like this party were only girls are allowed (I forgot what you call this...) same has to go with my fiancé. It's something I need to spend with my close friends just to celebrate. Girl thang.
The last night before the most awaited day, I'll be staying with myself. There's a saying that you can't see the bride (as for the groom) before the wedding. I'm making it 'night' before the wedding. I'm gonna be spending some quality time with my family during the day. Eat lunch outside, go shopping with my sis and bros, go skating, go to KTV with my family and have a dinner out. And by night, I'm gonna be stuck in my bedroom... I'm gonna see that scrapbook I've made for the two of us (me and my fiancé) when we're still boyfriend-girlfriend. I'm gonna be listening to the song we've picked to be our theme song and reminisce how long we're together. Remember the times when everything felt to wrong that we almost parted. Think of those birthdays, Christmas, and New Years together. And finally, remember when I said 'yes' when he proposed.... I'm gonna look at those boxes full of photo albums I've kept the whole years we're together and how young we were before. I'm gonna cry over my family's old photo albums where I can see myself so young for so long ago. Then suddenly, I'm gonna get married the next day and leave a separate life from them. Because I'm gonna be committed more than I seemed to be committed. I'm putting myself into the danger of being a wife.
Months to wait, and the perfect day has come. The morning bliss is where the day would start. I've waited for these for so long.. We did.
"But now you're always there for me, when you say forever, I BELIEVE."
Hair...make up... Wearing the wedding gown I've designed... and walking down the aisle. This is the moment I've wanted to spill my tears, but then again... I have to be happy. I have to make them all see that I smile this big 'cause I'm never gonna be alone anymore. And finally, I'm seeing my groom like I haven't seen him for so long.
Holding that flower wrapped in the most glittering papers. Hugging both of my parents so tight I could hardly breathe... My parents handing me to my groom, like they're already giving me to him right now as I've wished... His parents tapping his back and smiling broken knowing that this is the moment their son is gonna get married.
Exchanging vows is telling our love story... my vows is... on how I met him... how I fell so hard for him... how unexpected we've come to courtship... why we fight most of the times... how good it is to meet his so kind family... how he accepted mine too... how we've gone through it all... and what we used to do whenever we're together and how come we're now here.
He says his vows to me... saying what he thought of me when he had seen me... how I captured his heart even from the first day we met... how beautiful I am every day he sees me... how hard it has been for him courting me, haha... like how big is the world that we even got the chance to meet... how he got so patient in my mood swings... how he's gone through when it's raining so hard and had to apologize to me... how long it took for me to accept him back... and why he decided to propose... and what he thinks of me now. And I bet, there is no vow sweeter than this. There is no vow other than this that made me blush once again.
Lighting those candles, pinning that veil, holding that Bible...and that pair of ring. Exchanging 'I Do's' had never been so hard like this. Tears falling from our eyes, my friends and family, my parents... also wiping their eyes. The best part is that my groom... he's crying too. I tell you, I did not expect he will. I always thought that I'll always be the one who's gonna cry because of my too sensitive heart... But the last thing I found out about him, is that he cries too even in special occasions...
I'm surrendering my love. Because no flower, no ring, no gown, no lights, no food, nothing at all matters now... It's all about his love. It's the greatest thing that matters to me now. Because we're in front of the altar, standing beside each other... and none matters than surrendering our love. Because the moment I said 'I Do', I don't belong to myself anymore. I am his. And no one can take me away from him now.
"You gave me everything when you gave your heart to me..."
After one year or more, we got our heaven-sent angel. Our first born. And for that, may God be praised. :)
That's how I picture Marriage. It's never been so easy, it never will. That's how random I think. Sorry, folks.
"All that my heart could ever want has come true..."
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:44 PM
Monday, May 17, 2010
OKAY. NP: Gives You Hell - Glee Cast (Rachel Berry... :)
So, whaaaazuuuuup? (Oh, annoying orange! Can't wait for Friday (in US) again!)
After long hard years, I'm finally able to install Tweetdeck together with Seesmic. I'm so sorry Adobe Air, I think I've just deleted you in the programs last month. I didn't know you can be that useful. For my apologies, I downloaded your latest version, thank you for letting Tweetdeck and Seesmic be installed in the computer. Now, you have my twitter account be more useful.
So, all ya people out there, please follow @
JosephYeo18 on Twitter. Help it gain more followers, folling one can't kill you, right? :) Do it. Do it. Click 'follow!' Go go go!
Tomorrow, May 18, 2010-- I'll be meeting my fellow friends, SHE Republic, thank you for the schedule. I'm gonna be happy again, it'll make my vacation worthwhile somehow. :) Sorry I can't swim, I can't. :( But I'll be there for sure. but I can't promise you that, transportation is my problem, my dad might have meetings or other stuffs like that. Surely, I can't go if that's gonna be that way. :( But let's pray it won't be.
NP: Missing You - Meja. Emo much?
OKAY, I miss my ♥ JD20... :( JK. In other way, y'know. Not like I really know him. I just miss watching him play, it didn't even matter if he can't always get the shot. As long as I see him, that's gonna be treasured. Ew, that's too cheesy, isn't it? EW EW EW!
I miss my idol, JY18 too.... (not James Yap jersey no. 18, okay. haha!) Well, good thing they won last night's game. Secondly, he almost got double digit score, but I hope next he will! He can be the next BPG! Can't wait! Go all the way to champs, SMB!
NP: In this life - Delta Goodrem
Too many songs playing, I'm too slow in blogging. Kill me. "Just when I stopped looking, I saw it just how far I've come"... Quoted!
Right, got nothing else to say. Soooo, just go go go for the Youth Camp! four more days to go! Pray for us! :)
♥ life sent to Kyu
3:25 PM
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Alright, breathe. Because you won't die from a broken heart. But you can die wishin' you did. You can hold your breath, but your heart ain't gonna stop beating. You're just hurtin' yourself even more. Wanting to die but didn't. Don't you think that s*ucks?
I've been with YFC for a couple of days, too bad I wasn't able to go to Bailen's Youth Camp to serve. But I want to serve our chapter first than anywhere else. :> Wouldn't that be great? But it would've been really nice to serve other chapters. We had this bunch of little-thing-which-breaks-my-brain-because-of-this-I-do-not-know-wth-is screening. Why do we have to do that? HUH? WHY? Let all those who wants to join YFC be on the YC. Why do we have to choose? HMM. You got it all wrong, man. Or I got it all worse? Zarreh. Just let them be.
SO, whazzzzuuuuup??? (remembering the Annoying Orange, haha!)
NP: All or Nothing - Jay Sean ♥
Supposedly, I'm in Alfonso. Fiesta baby! But...too much loaded. First thing is the YFC general meeting, it lasted until past twelve. And I won't refuse to attend the meeting just for other stuffs like fiesta. Two, nobody's home. Three, they're gonna be in QC sooner or later. Four, nobody's home. Five, I would love to go to Alfonso, I just can't. SOO, for the long and the short of it, keep dreaming. As planned, I'll be sleeping over Roren's place, missing their really, really awesome family. Dang it, I would be visiting Nica's place too. But all goes the rest of it. I can't go. That's the freakin end.
Insensitive. OMG, how could you be like this? Eff.
Just kidding. I just hate that word. You cannot always be insensitive just because you want what you want TO BE. It's not always gonna go that way, you can just shut your effin mouth and listen to the world around you, ayt? Besides, you're damn insensitive that you're damn hurting other people.
So, the next word is... the f-ing MANHID! Coz I don't see any sense anymore about it.
See, a person doesn't feel you always as it may seem. Because that's how you expect. Your expectations are towering. Give it up all, man. That's too much for in every little thing, there's a reason behind it. And if a person can't feel you anymore, then maybe that person feels what you expect from him to other more worth-giving person. Not saying you're not one, someone will give 'it' to you, but not the person you expects. You're too much. So just stop there.
I wanna sleep. But that's just gonna make me fat, eew. I'm too fat... Kill me. PLEASE. Sheez.
♥ life sent to Kyu
2:34 PM
Saturday, May 15, 2010
So, by the time I post this...my ABC list will be gone on the first page :( But it's okay, imma change the numbers of posts in the first page, I gotta lessen it. Right? I got 10, maybe I can let it be just 5... Hmm. No, 7. 'coz there are 7 days a week. HAHAHA.
Posting random thoughts is a killer :)) All are from my crazy mind, so I thought...maybe you guys are thinking I'm too much posting about 'love' which is so stupid. So I'm gonna stop it for a while now. Or just lessen it. I just have soooo many tons of thoughts in my head that I have to spill them all out. Accept my apologies.
Did you catch What's Being Meant To Be's new chapter? Thank God I had the strength to finish it. I was pretty busy these past few days. It was for real. Got YFC days again, love them all. Now I'm missing them all too. Have the chance to see them again tomorrow after Youth Mass, meeting after it. It's gonna be a tough day, really, really tough. So I hope everything's gonna be fine, I know He'll be guiding us. There's no cutting us back. Everyone's gonna get into it. Right?
Okay, I've just watched the latest video of the Annoying Orange! Catch it on YouTube too, you're gonna laugh your lungs out. It's really funny. :)) So bet y'all gonna love it too.
I'm on message with Kirk, an old friend back at elementary. We were classmate those times. We parted. First is that I transferred school in high school. Second is that he left the country in sophomore. He's in Missouri now. It was hard for him, getting into being a freshman then just gonna end up leaving the country? Which is probably permanently. He's staying with his family. He's too you, don't you think? 14 years of age and of course, can't work yet unlike his brothers. So whatever's going on there, hope he'll be fine with his fam. Good luck. Well, he's nearly a year there, I guess so.
I was just saying I'm not yet replying to his recent message. We're talking about lots of stuffs, we used to be seat mates, as I can remember.
So back to what I was saying... What did I say?
Whatever.
SO, I just watched PBA last night. I was so kileeeeeg when I watch my ♥ JD20. Good thing they won though. They got new (key?) players-- Kelly Williams and Ryan Reyes. I thought it would be hard for them to adjust with the new players and the rotation would be difficult too. But either way, my ♥ JD20 got a lot of playing time, so apparently, I fell even more. HAHA. JK. What I'm talking about is that seeing K.Will and Rye wear those new jerseys is quite awesome. Changing uniforms might have been hard for them since they grow with the green one. I understand them, Rye even said that playing last night was like playing for the first time (again) in the PBA. What fascinates me even more is to watch them both adjust to their new teams. Hmm. K.Will played good enough to let TnT win the game. Rye added some assists and 5 point, it helped a lot though. How do they play? How do they adjust? Where can they bring their team? Who lost playing time? Will they stay long in their current team? Well, those are the questions left for the rest of the season.
Maybe that's enough. Sorry, I'm just really engrossed with the PBA. Because NBA here in the Philippines s*cks quite much, of course because of the time. The next thing is that cable here doesn't have BTV. So sad.
So, whatever. Today's a weekend, and school's nearly getting there. less then 4 weeks to go, and I'm about to go to hell for ten months once again. That's really terrible.
Where can I find peace? When can I live my life the way I wanted to? What can make me go on with this life? Who can tell me what to do for so long? Until when can I last? Where's my home? What's gonna make sense with this full-of-nothing life? Who will be there at the end? Are you gonna stay?
But I'm here. I can't just snap my fingers and yell for peace, I can't tick search button for anyone to inspire me. I can't just make decisions for myself. I can't always get there, go with who wants to be with me, walk with someone I want to be with. I can't mark the calendar myself, I can't escape tragedies, I can't always leave and turn my back at home, I can't always explain my side, I can't drag someone to be with me until the end, I can't choose who I'm going to be with. Only death can evidently explain what life is.
What I have now is something that's the best. If tomorrow's better, that's still gonna be the best of all because that's where I am.
Why am I talking drama? (Because I can't say these in real life) So buckle up, we're going on board. Welcome to my personal Lifeline.
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:43 PM
Friday, May 14, 2010
Random Thoughts:
Leaving someone behind is synonymous to abandoning even if it's for good. What's so good with leaving?
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:48 AM
Random Thoughts:
I was once wishing for us to be together. You didn’t and when you come back, I’m not there anymore.
♥ life sent to Kyu
12:38 AM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Random Thoughts:
Nothing is so painful as knowing you're never gonna be loved back by the person you're loving the most. The thing is, you know it even without his words.
♥ life sent to Kyu
10:35 PM
Random Thoughts:
"Where have you been? I was looking for you for too long. But that doesn't matter as long as you are here now."
- God
♥ life sent to Kyu
10:30 PM
A'right. So today's the BOMB!
Super super super uber really happy to get along the whole day with my YFC brothers and sisters. It was really fun hanging out with them, waling back and forth, here and there under the sun. Even our umbrellas can't kick off the heat. But we have to go all the way. Because the best treat out of this is the 'fun'. D'you YFC fellas feel it too? It's different being with YFC bros and sis, right? (say, I know right!') HAHAHAHAHA =))
Currently listening to Forever, just the same old song in the computer. OW, listening to the Video, I mean. DL-ed it like last week. OMG, I still fall in love with supah cool cover! ♥
OKAY, what else should I do? Kill me now if you can. I just can't post Chapter 15 yet! I'll be dying hard to post it tomorrow. And for you to know, I can't post Chapter 16 this week. I srewed up seriously. Laziness + busyness = nothing. So practically, I've done nothing. Sorry if loving YFC too much kills my social websites accounts. Not receiving too much notifications, eh? Many are out for vacation anyway. Speaking of vacation, schools about 4 weeks from now...I mean, less than a month! *shivers* Don't want SCHOOL Forever! But I want to work in the future. :( OK, too much drama here, give me air.
Just wanna share the super crazy convo between me and Maris.
Me: @ TOMORROW!!! yeeeeeeeh, oh. OMG, OMG, O.M.G. RB added me on fb. :)) why am i talking in english?
Maris: (PM-ed me in YM. HAHAHAHA, asking 'Sinong RB?')
Me: (on ym) *told her the acronym, the name!*
Maris: Tawag din kasi RainBow.
Maris:(now on twitter). @ yieee. RainBow! :D:D
Me: @ zarreh, I just forgot that I've once and always been calling him that way. :))
Maris: @ haha, whenever your RainBow is appearing, my VV is appearing too. :)))))
Me: @ omg, what's VV now?
Maris: @ vasketvall. LOL
Me @ OKAY, i get it :)) no need to ask you in PM. =)) VasketVall!
(and now you can follow us on Twitter. No account? Make one!)
That convo just blew away my mind. :)) We were sooooo magulo, both annoying too. :)) As in sobrang kuuuuuuuuuuuliiiit! :)) That's the BOMB!
OK, so. Back to YFC...
Why do I love them? I dunno, gives me no reason at all as long as I love Him. Now missing them again. *sigh* When we'll be meeting again? SUNDAY? Whatever, something's just not so right here. You won't be happy to now. So just go fighting YFC-Mendez chapter! Go Go Go and serve Him!!!!!!! Nothing can make us stop right now. So I'm inviting y'all to join the Youth Camp (to join YFC) on May 21-23, 2010. PM me if interested. You're gonna make your life happy :)
That's all for now.
P.S. Just when I logged in Twitter, my ♥ JD20 just had some little cute and joke argument with his team mates HC4 and NB1 :)) Can't laugh that hard, but it was really funny! my ♥ JD20 was saying, 'I hate you guys' :)) even saying he won't give them a ride home :)) (but the sad thing is, they're like too used to saying high unwanted words...or in others words, BAD WORDS, but that's how guys do, right? OMG, why do these people too fluent in English? And won't even bother using these words, because that's they're daily... spiritual food. JK *Just Kidding*. So whatever, that's them... Why do I care so much? Because I'm not that Holy to say such things. HAHA, Holy MUCH? I still ♥ JD20 anyway, so...what's the point? Just hatin' it.)
What on earth am I saying? Like I don't really use those words...Maybe once or twice a month. :)) I'd be happy using polite words, not polite-st words. Clearly. =))
OOOOOH, tell me how crazy am I... Before waking up/getting up in the morning, and before sleeping and pushing my face on my pillow, I stare at his pic on my phone. Zooming to see his face clearly, and whispering my own love...uh, song? JK, I stare while listening to my favorite song this time, When I look at you - Miley Cyrus. :) Wishing Goodluck for their team's next game, and please. Don't overrun SMB. :))
That's it. Goodnight, guys! Go Random Thoughts!
*edits* I forgot to tell you the real deal on JD20, he had Barbie Application on his iPod. OMG. What again? He said t'was cool, can't argue because I'm gonna be ♥ing him anyway :) *edits*
♥ life sent to Kyu
8:57 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Random Thoughts:
I’ve been reaching too much for my dreams that I’ve gone beyond it. Should I be happy because I’ve done so great, or unhappy, since I’m not living my dream anymore?
♥ life sent to Kyu
11:46 PM
Random Thoughts:
You have to be happy accepting
compliments, in that way others notice you.
♥ life sent to Kyu
3:47 PM
