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Posting random thoughts is a killer :)) All are from my crazy mind, so I thought...maybe you guys are thinking I'm too much posting about 'love' which is so stupid. So I'm gonna stop it for a while now. Or just lessen it. I just have soooo many tons of thoughts in my head that I have to spill them all out. Accept my apologies.

Did you catch What's Being Meant To Be's new chapter? Thank God I had the strength to finish it. I was pretty busy these past few days. It was for real. Got YFC days again, love them all. Now I'm missing them all too. Have the chance to see them again tomorrow after Youth Mass, meeting after it. It's gonna be a tough day, really, really tough. So I hope everything's gonna be fine, I know He'll be guiding us. There's no cutting us back. Everyone's gonna get into it. Right?

Okay, I've just watched the latest video of the Annoying Orange! Catch it on YouTube too, you're gonna laugh your lungs out. It's really funny. :)) So bet y'all gonna love it too.

I'm on message with Kirk, an old friend back at elementary. We were classmate those times. We parted. First is that I transferred school in high school. Second is that he left the country in sophomore. He's in Missouri now. It was hard for him, getting into being a freshman then just gonna end up leaving the country? Which is probably permanently. He's staying with his family. He's too you, don't you think? 14 years of age and of course, can't work yet unlike his brothers. So whatever's going on there, hope he'll be fine with his fam. Good luck. Well, he's nearly a year there, I guess so.

I was just saying I'm not yet replying to his recent message. We're talking about lots of stuffs, we used to be seat mates, as I can remember.

So back to what I was saying... What did I say?

Whatever.

SO, I just watched PBA last night. I was so kileeeeeg when I watch my ♥ JD20. Good thing they won though. They got new (key?) players-- Kelly Williams and Ryan Reyes. I thought it would be hard for them to adjust with the new players and the rotation would be difficult too. But either way, my ♥ JD20 got a lot of playing time, so apparently, I fell even more. HAHA. JK. What I'm talking about is that seeing K.Will and Rye wear those new jerseys is quite awesome. Changing uniforms might have been hard for them since they grow with the green one. I understand them, Rye even said that playing last night was like playing for the first time (again) in the PBA. What fascinates me even more is to watch them both adjust to their new teams. Hmm. K.Will played good enough to let TnT win the game. Rye added some assists and 5 point, it helped a lot though. How do they play? How do they adjust? Where can they bring their team? Who lost playing time? Will they stay long in their current team? Well, those are the questions left for the rest of the season.

Maybe that's enough. Sorry, I'm just really engrossed with the PBA. Because NBA here in the Philippines s*cks quite much, of course because of the time. The next thing is that cable here doesn't have BTV. So sad.

So, whatever. Today's a weekend, and school's nearly getting there. less then 4 weeks to go, and I'm about to go to hell for ten months once again. That's really terrible.

Where can I find peace? When can I live my life the way I wanted to? What can make me go on with this life? Who can tell me what to do for so long? Until when can I last? Where's my home? What's gonna make sense with this full-of-nothing life? Who will be there at the end? Are you gonna stay?

But I'm here. I can't just snap my fingers and yell for peace, I can't tick search button for anyone to inspire me. I can't just make decisions for myself. I can't always get there, go with who wants to be with me, walk with someone I want to be with. I can't mark the calendar myself, I can't escape tragedies, I can't always leave and turn my back at home, I can't always explain my side, I can't drag someone to be with me until the end, I can't choose who I'm going to be with. Only death can evidently explain what life is.

What I have now is something that's the best. If tomorrow's better, that's still gonna be the best of all because that's where I am.

Why am I talking drama? (Because I can't say these in real life) So buckle up, we're going on board. Welcome to my personal Lifeline.