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Friendship over Love. I guess that's what I'm all saying. Freakin' awesome, I'm broken, for the fact that I didn't know I'm inlove.

Gosh. Kill me now.

I don't know but... it has pierced my heart. Of all the hell, I cried. :'( Do you exactly know why it hurts?

IT HURTS TOO MUCH BECAUSE HE MADE ME HAPPY. AND FOR A SINGLE THING HE DOES FOR 'HER', IT KILLS ME... FOR EVERY SINGLE THING HE DO TO ME, HE LIFTS U MY SPIRIT, AND PUTS THAT SMILE ON MY FACE. BUT WHENEVER I REMEMBER THE FACT THAT IT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN, THAT PUTS AN END IN THE STORY. IT HURTS TOO MUCH. I GUESS IT'S ENOUGH.

:| One more damn thing, I blogged about him most of the time, right? Because I treasure every moment with him, every moment he makes me happy. A lot even happened this week before everything ends. And as I'm saying, this has gotta be the last to be blogging about him. It's over, for real. There's nothing anymore, it should be. Nothing on US ends, it's only about me. I svck too much at this. Damn it.

Ang hirap maging masaya kung yung nangyari lang ang bumabalik sa isipan ko. Sino bang hindi gustong maging masaya? AKO, ang tagal-tagal ko nang pinapangarap 'yon e. :(

You know what hurts even more?

Because he was the one who mended my broken heart last year. It was him who fixed it. It was him who brought back what I've lost--love.

I gave up on the one I've recently put my attention on--he's full of colors, that's what I can say. But then he came into my life, I already know him before, this time, it feels like he sinked into me. He showed me that truly, there are many fishes in the sea. I'm a fish myself, and he caught me. Though he didn't like me at all. Being alone fighting svcks more than you know. Know that now.

He healed my broken heart, but now he's the one who's breaking it. x| It hurts so bad now that I've got so many dreams... all have gone down is just a split of second.

Because I've always put in my head that it may be not the 'time' for us, but it 'can be'. Not now, but there's so many time to be. For that I can keep on waiting 'til the waters run dry. I did my part, to show him my concerns and all that he should know, but nothing's changed. Still, that's me, it's him. We're nothing like hell. I guess, the waters already ran dry.

Things will change now. Because what's now? It's just a reflection of yesterday to make it better.

When 'that' happened before my eyes, I wanted to close my eyes immediately and keep on dreaming like it's just a dream. But it pounds my chest harder, it's the reality I have to wake up and keep my eyes open for. Forget what you don't want to see, because it's damn happening. My eyes were blurry, but I managed to get my focus on what we should do. But I am WORRIED, yes I do. It's a matter of friendship. And there's no way I can help it. So, I've shown enough concern, because I'm always gonna be. But I ended up friggin' stupidly trying to pull my tears back later on... But it's impossible to avoid tears that time, so thank you, SF. You've been and always there for me, half of me, you're the reason to get going.

Kahit mahirap, masarap. Kahit masarap, mahirap. Pero... mahirap na lang, e... Hindi na masarap. :( Naging masarap, pero naging SOBRANG HIRAP na.

Avoid him. That's the least SF adviced me to do. Little by little, I will. Find others, too many to choose upon. No need to worry, God has a better plan for me.

"On this day, God wants you to know that it's time you let go..." -that's what I got from the daily message from God in FB. I guess, in no reason at all, I believe it. How can it be so right always? I'm just gonna lift it all up to Him, it's His plan. I don't have to argue anymore.

I'm getting there.

I can sing ALL OR NOTHING to you one time. :)

I can open my eyes in a still motion, there's no looking back. What I have here is a little faith for me, and a lot to Him.

NO MORE DRAMAS. THANK YOU SHE REPUB, ALL THE TIME, YOU'RE THE BEST! SPECIALLY MENTIONING SF AND ATE GANDAAAAA. :> You both are the best too!