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In a week, a lot had just happened. How do I start... Hmm.

Well... After a week, I still fall for Super Junior, lol. Yeah, nothing changes. By the way, I actually forgot to blog that during the South Korea-North Korea bombing... I actually prayed for peace for both companies and that I did not mention about KPOP in my twitter account that whole day. I just tweeted hoping for peace. Why? Because as I've said, those dark days... It was more about peace rather than being selfishly thinking of KPOP. Get it, get it (♪oh♫)? :) But now, I'm back endlessly tweeting about my thoughts and reactions and my sentiments. Boo.

And right now, my addiction's BEAST. I've known them for quite long now, but it's just now that I thought, 'Ooh, don't I get bored with SuJu?' so I watched some vids of these B2ST guys and POOF! Turns out that, yes... I don't get bored with SJ. But I really like ALL of BEAST members. Though I'm really a Junhyung bias... I srsly like all the members. All are soooo good looking and cute. and well, what more can I say... ♥ Plus, their songs are freakishly CUTE too!

Sandra and I were talking about KPop yesterday at school since we were kind of doing nothing that time, and YEA! She likes TVXQ so much! I know I'm not that into dbsk as much as her but still... we share the same interests! ♥ And she was like talking about some funny moments of SJ which I was so interested about. ♥ KPOP addicts collision!

There are so many SM The Ballad debut performances... and I was all YouTube-ing all of them, hihi. Through allkpop, that's why. And I must say they're really awesome-st! Those voices... *melts*. But there's this one performance, in which Jay weren't present, that Kyuhyun looked so damn tired and exhausted. SME, hello? Don't you know that these talents need rest too? Or it's just that Kyuhyun's too talented. lol. Because.. SM The Ballad, Super Show 3, The Musical, what else... He's such a busy artist. I don't want to see him that tired anymore. No more sad Kyuhyun, please? Anyway, their Hot Times performance on Music Core is really awesome and I was just amazed by Jino. GOOD POWERFUL HIGH VOICE--which all four of them has. ♥

For some reasons, I miss SHINee live performances... When's their comeback stage? Hmm. Can't wait for 2011! That's the same reason why I keep on listening to their songs... Hmm.

Oh, btw... I so wanna watch SS3-Manila!! Why is it on the same month as TS's concert? Ow. Plus, I guess the tickets will be sold out as early as the end of December. I envy those who already claimed their tickets. T____T How come I'm gonna miss the chance or even the last? chance to see the ten of them perform live in Manila? Imagine... Donghae and Kyuhyun. :( Plus Henry and Zhou mi is coming with them... And... that's LIVE, people. 12 people in a 7K or 6K ticket. Isn't it worth it? Plus thousands ELFs there. Oh, how I wish I can show my support for SJ. :(

(and btw, I can't watch TS's concert, there were rumors that it was already sold out and honestly, I cried before sleeping that night... because during her supposed-to-be concert last October, I was to attend, but the again... it was cancelled. and now I can't watch the real one. *sniff sniff* PLUS the ticket's too expensive. Booooo!)

There's no way I'll ever fall out of love for kpop these days. ♥

SO yea. As said... I have stories to tell.

It's already Christmas season and and I fvcking can't feel it. Hohoho. Santa? Err. Not as excited as before.

You know... that feeling when you're really excited about everything that's gonna happen this season... I don't have that feeling. That feeling when 'yes! Christmas vacation's coming!' and so I don't also have those vibes. Why? For some reasons... we've never been this broke. :'(

Though it's said that money won't ever matter than anything else. That there are so many other things in life that's more important than money. Well, let's face it. It's not always gonna be that way that those words are effective.

Money is somehow essential in our lives. For real. Let's be realistic, we can't live without money.

It's really been a while since I'm keeping everything inside. But I have a sentiment that we are having problems financially... something I never saw coming. If it was, then I should have started chasing every dream before when we still have some at hand.

You can say I'm crazy for minding such businesses, something that my parents should be taking care of. But it can be too easy for you to say that, but I have a life. And money has always been there for me. But truth be said... Money won't ever go after you, you have to chase after them. Though executive rich people... money works for them, not them for money.

Practically, exam's next week.

And the day after exam's the Christmas Party. And so... We'll never get the chance to have Christmas shopping because yeah, we're that broke. No, not even a little fun. :(

I was a bit and a whole bunch of psychotically disappointed. :( Boo.

WHY? Because in our school... Christmas Party is like... a fashion day? It's the only day for a whole school year that we'll ever wear civilian clothes, that's why it's somewhat FASHION Day.

Now I don't have anything to wear... They just don't understand how this day could be sooooo memorable for a high school student like me. :( Plus... WHAT WILL I GIVE TO THE PERSON I PICKED FOR THE EXCHANGE GIFT? Omo. He'll die in vain! :)))) Because how can I buy a gift for him? OW :( Anybody, Kill Me Now! So I'm actually thinking of skipping that day, Christmas Party. I'm planning not to attend... well my mom understand why I should not attend the said party coz if ever... I'll be the only one attending without new clothes. I was a bit glad she does understand me. But it was my father who can't seem to understand. He was being to practical, but please. Be REALISTIC this time.

You just don't know this school is so cool and I'm gonna be so out off trends if I'll go with what's in my closet now.

I was teary-eyed when I said I won't just attend the party. :'( I just missed too many events for this school year.

But still, I just can't put the blame on my parents alone.

Not even a pinch.

I've been receiving a thousand and five hundred bucks as an allowance per week. How much do a meal cost in out school? Fifty bucks is enough. So I could prolly spend just a five-hundred bucks a week and save the one thousand left. But HECK I DIDN'T! And now I don't have savings. :( To admit it, I bought nonsense things like magazines (which means LIFE to me, you know that...), books (which I can't find enough time to read them all...), accessories (which are not even allowed at school). I just wasted the opportunity to form myself a productive person. If only I saved money from the start, I could have saved a 10K bucks, right? Or even more!

So NOW I BLAME MYSELF. :(

Though there were weeks when I didn't receive allowance because my parents were really cut short. So I had to spend my savings back then, maybe one of the reasons I can't save money because the next week, I'll be using my own money as allowance.

Life svck too much this year.

...well at least for me, it really did.

What makes things worse is that they kind of think of money more than meeee. Boo. Oh, these teenage dramas. :| Of course, I understand that they find money, but could they just find time with me? BOO.

Life couldn't get any worse than this. Same reason... Being broke makes it impossible for me to watch SS3 or TS's concert. :|

On the other hand... I have my own sentiments too for him. :(

Or am I just being childish once again? Boo. (I hate saying BOO, don't i? Lol)...

there's just really something wrong... I can't clearly figure it out that well, but of course. One of SHE knows... one of my closest friends knows. So two people knows the story behind this. I'm not having a problem with him, I'm having a problem with myself by myself. Thinking too much, I guess? Or am I being too sensitive? Or I'm just expecting too much. Or there's just really something wrong going on.

There's really something different. But then again... I put in mind that LOVE is about acceptance so I try my best to accept him the way he is. Bow.

What is that wrong with me? lol. I hate myself.

I and my servicemates even made codenames for the people we've been talking about 'illegally'... Mine's MMY, theirs are DTNY, and *oh, I forgot the other one, fvvvvvck!*. Anyway, I found it really funny though. Hihihi. Of course, we can't just talk about these people in an isolated place... loljk. with others surrounding us. So we made these cute little codenames. WE JUST OMITTED SOME LETTERS FOR THE WORDS THAT DESCRIBE THEM BEST. =))))

Ooookay.

Speaking of service... I hate this sentiment against it also. I don't freaking wanna remember it, but I posted that on my tumblr. If you wanna know it, just read it. :|

I was really insulted. And I wanted to insult them back. And there are those... whom I hate now. LOLJK.

STOP THE DRAMA.

My life shortens every single day, hour, minute. So I can't just waste time on these things.

DONE.

OUT.

Still broke. :(