2011's first Monday was way off the mark... one of the worst ways it could have been. Ever again.
I never thought I already saw this coming... since last night.
When I logged in my yahoo messenger... I already received messages to do something this or that or lend a hand for an article. No, it wasn't really that I hate it. I wasn't just in the right mood. But I'm honestly happy to be able to help. But that was like... a forecast or like it was a warning... that's something related to the school newspaper.
I'm a bit down... loljk. I'm a hundred times down than I wrote it down. I'm undergoing a certain self-inflicted depression. I'm a million times shouting I'm Not Okay and about ten times telling my friend's 'nalulungkot ako (i'm sad)'. I said that forcing a smile, so they didn't believe me. I knew it that they wouldn't. But those who know me well... for real... knows when to approach me and feel that there's something wrong. Because wtf there is really something wrong.
Maybe with me, not with anything else around me.
I meant no harm nor hurt... But I was asking a long, long time ago but I just ignored DOUBTS... "WHEN YOU'VE BEEN HURT ONCE, IS IT WORTH IT TO LOVE THE SAME PERSON AGAIN?" Is it even possible like... omfghjkl.
But those were just crazy thoughts. Tss.
For some reasons, I really did not want even just a percent, to have school back.
/wrist.
....this is not yet done.
BUT I LOST MY MOOD IN BLOGGING. I'M SO OFF MY MIND TODAY. BLOWN AWAY. I SHOULD DIE. T.T
*currently working for our school newspaper endlessly editing some articles... and downloading Super Junior Full House... thanks to my Sunbae!!!
I'M CURSED TO BE THE KING OF COMPUTER.
♥ life sent to Kyu
4:59 PM