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15th. Forgive me... I'm really worried about Kyu here. :S

Dear Kyu,

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I'M DISAPPOINTED AND DOWN RIGHT NOW? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I WANT TO SCOLD YOU EVEN IF IN RETURN IT WOULD JUST HURT ME INSTEAD? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW I FORCED MY DAY TO FLOW NORMALLY AS IF NOTHING'S WRONG?

Well... Kyu... Just so you know, my day started as a hell... All because of you. Kyu, seriously, you're driving me nuts.

In the last few days, you know how I've been very jolly and cheerful. You know how exactly I was happy and everything...

You know what hurts me?

It's that I've always been reminding you to take care of yourself, but look what happened, it seems like you attracted another accident and you took away my sanity. ARE YOU THAT ACCIDENT-MAGNET?

The accident happened right before I went to bed and sleep. IT HAPPENED. And I was awakened by the sudden news which broke me nearly into countless pieces, Kyu... I tried to hold back tears because I held on to words that says YOU'RE GONNA BE FINE. Yes you are because I believe in you as the entire ELF does, YOU ARE STRONGER than how we know you are. Your tweet was heartbreaking for formalities in apologizing.

You little idiotic yet evil maknae~ Were you the one driving? Seriously, you should have known your limitations in driving though the driver of the truck is the one to be blamed. I wish you just remembered that there are millions of people out there who might as well die with you if ever you're harmed.

Kyu, it hurts that I endlessly held on tight, prayed hard, and told you so many times to take care of yourself because I CAN'T TAKE CARE OF YOU since we're thousands of miles away from each other, as much as I want to be there for you (well like all the other fangirls do), I can't and the farthest I can get to you is by prayers and get news from the internet. But then again, to hear that, yet again, you were involved in another car accident. 'You're kidding me, right?' was my first expression because I don't wanna believe it.

Kyu, I worried so much.

Words can't express how you turned my day down and how I tried to push it up the whole day. ~_~ I was hopeless crazy little fangirl trying her best to cheer up and flood her Tumblr with your pictures yet with sad and ironic thoughts.

No I'm not mad. How can I ever blame you for such accident? Never will. I just went overboard, I was overreacting. I worried TOO much than I was supposed too. I went off my limits of giving concerns toward you.

Please be fine. ~_~; It really hurts to see you suffer again from a car accident, everything just brings a bitter flashback of 2007 accident, every little thing did.

I'LL KEEP MY HANDS TOGETHER AND PRAY, I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE.

사랑해요 초규현... 쟁말 사랑해... ♥

♥,

신 숭혜

14th.

Dear Kyu,

It's been a while... ^__^

I MISS YOU.

Sweet enough? :))

It's already 6 in the morning here and I'm not yet sleeping... Well I had a three-hour-long nap when I got home from SFX's swimming... That makes me still alive and kicking until this morning. My parents are already awake and getting ready for work, and yeah, I'm still writing this letter for you. Kkk~

Well... I've seen your first performance of Perfection... I mean I already saw some fancams during some of your recordings/tapings... but still this one feels like 'official' yah know. ^__^ SJ-M HWAITING~! ^_^o

And I also saw your Spao CF with SNSD and just as usual, you look perfect... Especially on that pink shirt =^_^= And no matter how many times I try to ship you with my Seobb, I just don't find you guys... adorbs since I really ship YongSeo... real hard. :') And I'm hoping to get a copy of Goguma couple ^__^ and that I'm touched by Seobb's tears during the last episode. :') I'll try to find some other girls to ship to you, I also found a selca of IU and you... you two look cute together. ^_^

But I guess we'll look the best together, haha just kidding. There are lots of gamers out there who'll say that too. u_u but that's okay, i'm just one of them.

Now I do sound EMO-ish :))

OPPA ~_~ I saw him today... I kind of hate it, if only I'm not that bound to SFX, I really wouldn't come because I know I'll be seeing him. It's like... He looks this way, I look the other way. He goes this way, I go the other way. He even managed to say HI to me, and I wonder how he had the guts. ~_~ I'm extremely mad.

You understand me, right?

Just had to be that way. /wrist

Well anyway, the good thing is I got to meet my friends + SFX loves. That swimming doesn't have to be about him anyways.

But I still feel bad.

So I ended up swinging up my mood to slumping my head on bed when I got home. TT_TT I was supposed to wake up by 11 but I ended up switching off my alarm to 1AM hahahaha.

I ended up DL-ing Ukiss' Vampire episodes *currently still dl-ing though I watched the first two episodes already kkkk* and trying to lighten up my mood...

I was supposed to update with Chapter 51, just tell Yesung-oppa about that haha, but I'm listening to Ukiss' 0330 and boom. Mood's switched to Kevin spazzing. So I just left it on the drafts. Will probably just finish it later when I go online again. :) And just so you know I'm really happy about the results so far, I mean I really got moved by comments. Will always be moved by comments that makes me wanna update sooner~! ^_^ I love my readers/subscribers, srsly. :)

ARE YOU READING EVEN IT? I know... I should just make one fic for you, well I have this idea in my mind but I guess I'll change it again... And please, don't tell me I'd be making a Kevin one because I don't want but it feels like I want too. ?_?

AND I can't even finish reading my sister's story. I feel bad for myself. I WILL ONE DAY! I PROMISE and will always vote her stories ^^

Well oppa, I need to sleep now... Zzz.

TAKE CARE ALWAYS.

♥,

S.S.H.