I ♥

Dear Kyu,

How have you been? I've read so many 'funny' things about you and your schedules in Taiwan haha. Well I see you had a lot of fun but you flew to Thailand even when you're sick. Seriously, you need to take care of yourself...even more if possible. Because there are those who just wants to see you but doesn't even care if you're physically sick, they said... because it's your work and I don't see any concern at all from them. They're just plainly fans and not... REAL fans. If they are, they should care about your health, right? I just don't understand those people.

You missed me. HAHA Just kidding. I missed posting here~

Still it's patterned at Letters though I'd be talking about random thoughts... Forgive me.

Lately, I've been addicted to U-Kiss. hihihi

Well I think my Twitter can explain that, if you're following me, I'm always spamming about U-Kiss. A month has passed and then I became a hardcore Kiss Me. Before, I was just... a normal normal normal Kiss Me. I listen to U-Kiss, watch random performances but I can hardly call them by their names since I only know Kiseop and Kevin before. And Xander because he has different features, yah know. He can be easily determined from the other members.

Sometimes, I even skip watching U-Kiss' performances like in Gayo Daejun perfs, I SKIPPED theirs, I just watched Super Junior's, SNSD, and so on.

I'm not a die-hard or a hardcore Kiss Me before.

Not until...

WELL, rumors and confirmations.

That Xander and Kibum are to withdraw in U-Kiss.

It was like... the Shock of the Era of my life.

Dugeun dugeun.

I died on the spot.

Without any further reasons... Maybe... Just... I can't imagine them leaving U-Kiss as much as like... two of Super Junior members leaving, right? It kills. And the reasons... were unacceptable for me. For Kibum, it said... for focusing on their business. And for Xander, pursuing his studies. Like WTF. Anyone can do both career and studies and business!

Not until I found out everything was NHM's mess. That's what they revealed to be the reason... but the real was... LACK OF TALENT. And more fvcking news. WTF is LACK OF TALENT? First, they accepted them in their company because of talent. and wtf are they saying Lack of Talent. Second, Kibum was even in Xing before, and wtf again are they saying Lack of Talent??? Lack of talent after staying with U-Kiss for nearly three years after debut?! Seriously, NH Media, you suck for letting Kibum and Xander withdraw from the group... and it wasn't their decision to leave, it was yours. Failure.

I always thought... Fine. That's just the way how it goes and move on. Xander and Kibum left the group. End of story.

But there's the other side of U-Kiss that needs to go on and doesn't put an end to the story. There will be new members in addition... or in replacement of the two EX-members... or ORIGINAL members (since Kiseop was an additional member...).

It was soon revealed--the two new members.

But I didn't care enough to read articles since I still think it was stupid, like... what's U-Kiss without the two EX-members. I always wanted LOYALTY. But then there are those new members. And I wasn't eager to know them.

(Wait, I got to know U-Kiss even more when I received their Only One album as a gift from my Dianny, I forgot to mention.)

My focus was on CN Blue that time since they'll be coming back soon.

But then again... U-Kiss got its own way to me.

I swear I didn't watch their teasers. But when the album was released, I downloaded it right away. And there's this something called love struck, lol~ I fell in love with Bran New Kiss album right away. It was so different (from their past albums).

(I also got to know about Bran New Kiss because I was following Kevin on Twitter and he keeps on tweeting about it.)

MV was released, no changes. Kiseop and Kevin still are the persons I can identify. LOL~ I can hardly identify the new members except that I see no Xander.

They started their comeback stages and I waited patiently for them. I downloaded their performances, I only used Keepvid since I wasn't a member YET of their forums.

I want to get to know them more. and the only way is... to watch their shows.

That's when i started searching all over Google and Youtube. U-Kiss Vampires.

It was a very short show, but they were hella funny! I don't know but words aren't enough to describe them HAHAHA. They have very different personalities! And Kevin was so adorable. ^^

Okay, enough. In U-Kiss Vampire, I got to know them. And I got to name them. LOL~ And that's when I started realizing... How can Xander and Kibum be not around anymore?~ T__T

I watched Chef's Kiss next.

And that's when everything subsided inside me. And I slowly realized... I love U-Kiss. ♥

In the show... I laughed the hardest, I almost woke up my siblings in the middle of their sleep because I literally laughed out loud while watching Chef's Kiss. Every episode was just... hella funny to hell and it's hard to hold in the laugh! :))

I started sleeping when the sun's already rising~ U-Kiss addiction taught me to be patient enough, because downloading stuffs about them takes a lifetime, so yeah... Indeed I learned to be patient. (Just like now since I'm downloading their MTV appearance... and it's really ssssslllllooooooowwwww).

U-Kiss exploded my external hard drive. For some reasons, it beat Super Junior. I've got more U-Kiss files than Super Junior (since it's hard to find Super Junior videos because mostly are old... and so freaking hard to find...) but I'm still on my way to download Super Junior videos. It's just that I found more resources of U-Kiss. (there's just no way it can beat SNSD since my snsd files are from my sister and she's a hardcore S♥NE, she's got more than 30gb of files...).

So just to make the story short...

I think my U-Kiss knowledge suddenly widen.

But the highlight of it was Chef's Kiss because I laughed and CRIED a lot because of this show~ I really cried... It's hard to imagine but yes, I did. Especially to see Xander and Kibum crying on the last episode. I know Kevin has a soft heart and a cry baby too, when he cried in Vampires as each of the members were telling their own stories of hardships, it was Kevin who cried even if he didn't share anything. That's the first time I cried for U-Kiss (or WITH U-Kiss) which is barely on the first parts of the show actually... I think U-Kiss is composed of strongly built members...

Soohyun's dad died when he was just on the 2nd grade and they had a hard time financially... and that's when he pursued singing and there's no other dream for him than to be a singer. And remember, he's the main vocals of U-Kiss. Such a dream come true~~

Kiseop tried for so many companies but everyone kept on rejecting him... He almost committed suicide... but it was his mother who was in pain seeing Kiseop having a hard time... He almost committed suicide, this fact shocked me the most. And I cried right away when I heard it from Kiseop. ㅠ_ㅠ

Dongho's was very understandable (he was the first to share...) because his pains were of a maknae~ We all know maknaes have very heavy responsibility in the group. He gets more schedules than the other members because he was to promote for the group. As for Dongho, he always thought he wasn't doing enough for U-Kiss to gain popularity. Whenever he's not in the mood, it was because he was very tired of having tight schedules. And he was very happy when *a certain name of artist here, I forgot the name* recognized him from U-Kiss and that's when he thought... U-Kiss is indeed gaining popularity. So we always have to love the maknae~ not only Dongho but all the other group's maknaes because they're always in charge of making the group popular.

Eli... Eli was away from his parents for a long time, based on my estimation. He stayed in China before, he was broke. He had to eat ramen noodles for a month or two? Because he had no money... ㅠㅠ Such dramas I only see on TV! You know, it's like... Eli is one of the most built up guy in this group and who would've thought he suffered from hunger before? :( Plus! His message to his father on Chef's Kiss was very touching... really touching... I cried on the thought of it. It was... ugh, beyond expectations! Eli has a soft heart too... I swear he loves his daddy.

(and as of now, I just got the news that Dongho was sick and rushed to the hospital, he also mentioned emergency room on his Twitter~ ohmygosh... He's asking for prayers actually... I think he got fatigued because of travelling and tight schedules of U-Kiss. They just got back from LA... aww, I hope he gets well soon and for the other members to regain their strength as well, I think they're all tired... and exhausted. ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ)

Kevin... well, he's Kevin.~ ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

I don't see any problems on him, but I was most touched when he said (or joked) that even if he acts so girly, looks like a girl and has a body of a girl (because he's freaking thin, yah know), he doesn't want people to misunderstand him by those aspects because he still has a heart of a man. :) I don't know the exact words but the thought is the same. His has the nicest personality for me, that's why he's my ultimate bias, haha. He's so innocent and kind and friendly, (remember when he approached Martina and Simon --from eatyourkimchi plus he treasures gifts from fans like no other, ^^) and everything I like in a man. He's Kevin.

Xander... well what can I say.

He's the man I miss the most. He's my bias next to Kevin in U-Kiss! I know he's not the most gorgeous man in U-Kiss because I consider Kiseop for that, hahaha. But his personality is something to be admired! He's different. In his own pretty ways. He's just that guy... a great guy with explicit laughs and priceless reactions! He's perfect, I consider him to be perfect. And I miss him so much...

Together with Kibum. ㅠㅠ

You know him. Kibum is a great guy too for so many different reasons from Xander. I mean... Kibum is very manly, and he's the funniest guy I've know in U-Kiss~! And his balsamic saaaaaws. Remember? And his temper is the worst as well. I mean... when he's mad, he's MAD and no one dares to talk to him, yup! He's that scary. :) But when he cried at the last episode of Chef's Kiss... it was... worth crying with him. You know it, he has a heart too. ^v^

Srsly, and honestly... there are so many facts I want to share about U-Kiss... but maybe I can just keep them all by heart, and treasure them the most. :)

Because I love U-Kiss so much... I don't want to forget this memories and I just had to blog it. I'll love U-Kiss forever with SJ and SNSD. ^__^ U-Kiss forever~~~

Kiss Me forever~~~ \(^__^)/

If I've got more time, I could have written down more~ Maybe I'll update you next time.