I ♥

A Personal Blog.

Note: this won't be a 'letter to Kyu', for this one will be something about me... and my craziness. Ahiiii. I mean... Okay, just type them down~ I even had to change my blog url so that no one can read this...

I actually thought for so long and so many times if I should blog this because you know... I'm a bloggie kiddo.

Of course, I hesitated for a hundred times as well. But now I'm here, jotting down whatever I wanted to say, how I feel, and how I wanted to feel.

And how I should feel.

~~ I'm smitten.

It's too personal to say his name, to even mention things that can perfectly describe him. He's a secret. And besides, he's a man and by that, I mean it.

No, I'm not in love. I said, I'm just smitten.

A love-struck, I'm crushing, I'm infatuated, I'm attracted.

All in one for the person that can be on the bottom of my list for those special guys to me. (Well you all know Kyuhyun's on top of that XD)

I see him as a brother, I look up to him. And he surely see me as his little sister. (Or let's say he can't even see at all XD)

Because we're two different persons. He's very manly, humble and all simple. He knows hard work, there's not a pinch of superiority in his personality, he knows simplicity so well, he can live on his own. He is a man. He can probably face every heartbreak strongly, but right now... He doesn't think of anything but his family. (No he's not a married man, and when I say family, I'm referring to parents, etc.)

He has a willful heart.

When he wants something, he's persistent. But when things can't be done the way he thought they would, then he's focused on the brighter side. He's always on for the 'easier' way... or probably the 'easiest' as well.

He's the only person I know in my life that can be as great as this.

He cries because of successes of his hard works. He cries when his heart was moved. He cries for the love for his family and loved ones. He cries because he has a heart that's willing to give it all, to give his all because he's too dedicated to his duties.

He's always stepping up for the one and ends up lifting the whole group on his back.

The strength he can claim on his own was always the way for the group to grow stronger with him.

He knows his ways.

He knows ways.

He just knows.

As I've said, for me, for all, he must probably be a great guy. A strong built person for the love of others... for the love for others.

But behind this personality I see through... He can crack up humorous jokes, he can suddenly show his funny side, the other face of his mask that's hiding all the hardships he's undergoing in his life. The way he makes us all laugh, the way he cracks up jokes when we're at the most serious and solemn moment. The way he wanted to lighten up the mood when we're all buried in our difficulties. The way he exaggerates the use of his talents and skills just to let smiles flash in our faces. The way he can do them all the way he does.

No, he's not Kyuhyun of Super Junior that I've always been dreaming about, that I want to probably live my life with without even knowing his personalities as a man because I only see his personalities as who he is as a singer, as part of the group, as computer games addict.

No, he's not Kevin of U-Kiss that can always make me smile with just a single glimpse of him in pictures and see his beautiful selcas and how perfectly his performance suites in promotions fit him. He's different from Kevin who can actually makes me drool and day-dream about and can actually be considered skinnier than I am. I must've swore to God to marry a person like Kevin, but not to him.

And he's all different from Xander with priceless reactions and precious smiles on his face. He doesn't nag as Xander does, he never nags. I probably won't miss him the way I extremely miss Xander. He's not a Twitter-addict and probably rarely go online even on Facebook. He doesn't have the famous girly make-ups the way Xander would put make up on his own.

My idols are way different from him.

But I'll always look up to him.

We'll probably stop seeing each other soon, but we'll be together in this hard work and difficulties coming our way, right? I'll always cherish the times we've spent together. Because I found another brother in you. Might as well be a sister to you, right?

Be well~~ Always. ^_^)o Fighting!

I pray that you continue being as great as you are. Be greater. Be better. Be the best.

For nothing can beat you other than yourself.

~~I'll always be your 'dongsaeng'... ♥