Nothing much to say.
I just want to tell you how hard I am trying to fight my feelings for you because it's not right, just not so right... just not really right to feel this way for you.
Help me get over this. I don't want to be wrong again in a way that can hurt myself even more than the way that I can let you feel me.
This is just not right...
I know you take care of me because you always see me as your little sister that would always need a helping hand and protection from her brother. I know you take care of me because it's your responsibility, it's a duty as I look up to you like my brother. Though we're not blood-related, though we're not even friends before, though we didn't know our existence until you stepped up for us... the feeling of getting to know you more each day is a bitter-sweet delight I always look forward to.
But isn't it ironic that I feel this way? Because I said before, I was desperate to look for someone to mend my broken heart, now that it's getting better, I regret part of it that it has to be you. So I'm trying to find reasons that it can't be you. I don't want it to be you. My heart won't let it to be you.
You are a brother to me. Nothing more than that.
I am a little sister to you... Nothing more but it can even be lesser than that.
You'll always be that way, I'll just stay this way as well. Let's be ourselves... I'll keep it all. By myself. For the better. For the best.
I'll always love you as part of this 'family'. We share one love, we share IN one love with others around us.
Always be safe~ be well. Be good. Be the best. ♥
♥ life sent to Kyu
3:33 AM
Friday, May 20, 2011